Think I should warn you that this may be a bit of a rant! I CAN'T SLEEP!
I have had the milky drink, 4 sleeping pills and nothing - nada - rien - zilch! And I am tired and cross.
The trouble is that the antidepressants make me wakeful and the sleepers make my sleepy but nothing succeeds in turning off my mind.
I have tried counting sheep - gone through the alphabet looking countries and cities in alphabetical order - there isn't city that begins with I or even x! I do the times tables in my head trying to reach that place of non thought - nothing happens because all the little thoughts like owing £11,000 on the repossessed house keep coming back to haunt me. Oh god what do I do? Oh yes and I walked two miles today - so no cracks about exercise.
Oh the joy of shutting one's eyes and drifting away into nothingness - when will I feel that again?
There - feel better now so will try the light off and back to the alphabet and tables.
Good night xxx
I have had the milky drink, 4 sleeping pills and nothing - nada - rien - zilch! And I am tired and cross.
The trouble is that the antidepressants make me wakeful and the sleepers make my sleepy but nothing succeeds in turning off my mind.
I have tried counting sheep - gone through the alphabet looking countries and cities in alphabetical order - there isn't city that begins with I or even x! I do the times tables in my head trying to reach that place of non thought - nothing happens because all the little thoughts like owing £11,000 on the repossessed house keep coming back to haunt me. Oh god what do I do? Oh yes and I walked two miles today - so no cracks about exercise.
Oh the joy of shutting one's eyes and drifting away into nothingness - when will I feel that again?
There - feel better now so will try the light off and back to the alphabet and tables.
Good night xxx
No comments:
Post a Comment